Big Change

I have one week left of Culinary school. One week until I am a drop out. I am shockingly ok with it. Big changes are coming for me and hubby. We are MOVING!!! Finally after 5 years in California we are moving on. We are heading back East. We are moving to Kentucky! When most people think of Kentucky they don't think of anything special, but I think of change! It is a change from being in CA. Plus we will be closer to our families which will be nice! The changes that are coming are good and I am excited about everything! It's funny how sometimes things just all come together. Today life is good and that's all I can ask for.

Hope and Cookies

Well...It's official. As of March 28 I will be considered a college drop out. The paperwork is done and they are in the process of closing my account at The Art Institute. At least I get to finish this quarter, though, knowing I can't go back is making it hard for me to put my heart into it.

After telling a friend about not being able to afford school, she and her husband have come up with a plan for me to raise money to go back. The first suggestion was to host a fundraiser dinner...too bad I don't know anyone rich to invite. The next suggestion was to sell cookies online. I have joked about this for a while but I never thought it was possible. My friend, however, showed me where I can do it and that it is possible. So, I am currently working on some examples of cookies and I am going to give it a try. Maybe it will make me some money and maybe it won't, but just the idea gave me some hope.

Here's hoping I sell LOTS of cookies!

Good Bye Dreams

Well AI, it’s been a good run. I’ve enjoyed my time with you and I have learned a lot. I’ve had some really great chefs and some really awful chefs. I made some new friends in my short time there as well and I wish them all the best.

I have been in culinary school for just over 6 months and I have loved every second of it. Even when the chef was SO bad, I loved that I was cooking. It was something I had wanted to do for a long time and I was finally doing it, but it’s over. I can’t get a loan to go back. The bank has pulled the rug out from under my dream and I am done. I’m realizing now that it was more of a pipe dream than anything, but still, I sit here heartbroken.

There is a bright side to this though…Men’s Wearhouse now has a really well trained employee that will be there for life.

2010...a year if change or just a change of year?

2010. I have high hopes for this year. It’s the beginning of a new decade and I’m ready for change. I wanted to say that this year is going to be about me. Me and only me. But, the girl inside of me that has been walked all over forever says that that is selfish. So I will rephrase that…this year is about figuring out who I want to be, cultivating new friendships and working on others, standing up for myself, being a stronger and better person and being healthy. All my life I have let people walk all over me and I am so tired of being pushed around and treated like garbage. This year I am going to speak my mind, stand up myself and make myself happy. I count too, and I will not let people make me feel differently. I matter and I am important. Part of being better and doing better is treating myself better. I will earn how to relax and to slow down, I will go to the gym. Hell, maybe I’ll do yoga. I just want to be better.I have made some bad decisions and done some stupid things and this year is about being a better person and making better choices. I want to be a better friend, a better wife and a better person. This is a new year’s “resolution” of sorts, so who knows how long it will last, but I hope it sticks. 2010...BRING IT ON!